The big "C"

I saw my surgeon yesterday and it turns out my lump contained papillary thyroid cancer.  It is a strange feeling when you hear those words.  I know my eyes glazed over and I felt like I was in a dream like state for a minute.  But deep down I really believe I knew it was cancer.  The surgeon assured me I will be fine and it is the best kind of thyroid cancer to have ie; the most curable. 

After a lot of thought , I can honestly say  I am not worried.  Sure, I felt a little overwhelmed in the car on the way home , no one wants to hear they have cancer.   But my mind has been flooded with the positive things God has done through all of this. He really is so merciful !!  He knows where this journey is taking me and I just need to trust him even when I don't like it or understand why.   Life happens, it's not fair and even sucks sometimes but choosing to learn from it is going to be my outlook.  I just feel bad for family and friends that are concerned about me.

The best news is that the primary treatment for this cancer is surgery...... well I've already had it done !  And, the cancer was contained so likely it's all out of my body now.   I may need a radioactive iodine treatment in 2 months when I meet with the oncologist.  But, chemo isn't required for this type of cancer thankfully.  Fortunately, I will have 10 years of follow up scans regardless.

For now  I look forward to many more years of bear making.   I am itching to get back at it.  Onward and upward :)